I was harassed and intimidated by gangs of youth with immigrant origin. That is because I myself is partially immigrant, but I refused to hang out with them. Before I was diagnosed (age 12), I was actually taken seriously by teachers and break guards. They found it little irritating that I did not interact with any peer, but they accepted my reports as truthful.

But after I was diagnosed in year 1999, it started to rapidly decline. Soon, their only standard reply was "So so. They are just seeking contact. You do not understand what they want. Just be friendly with them."

They also started to talk more slowly and more childishly to me. That got me very upset once when my teacher did so. So I took an iron ruler from the whiteboard and beat her up. I was simply fed up with not being taken seriously.

When I went to college, harassments intensified, as some subhumans constantly spread out rumours that I was insane. When I confronted girlfriend of one of the major subhumans, alpha male of that pack, and gave her public verbal assault, I was later assaulted and beaten up by five Turks and Arabs in one of the stairs at college. This happened when I was seventeen. I got one arm broken and two ribs shattered, as well as inner bleedings and slight brain concussion.

There was 30 witnesses. None of them dared to testify. They feared Turks, because Turks controlled drugs and prostitution in my suburb. I was also known to be very racist during that time (2004).

They claimed I had fallen in stairs. I called them liars. So, six weeks after assault, I was summoned to principal office. There I was told that I could either quit college or face serious consequences. He threatened to report me to authorities for "slander" and "hate crime". He also reiterated that Hassan and Ali merely wanted me to be friendly with them and not "harass their girlfriends". He also explained to me that since I have Asperger's, I should not judge how people act because I am unable to comprehend it. He also explained to me that I am in need of constantly having someone to ask why people are behaving like they are. As an Aspergian, I am unable to do so, he meant.

If I had'nt still been on wheelchair, I would strangled him. I seriously never had hated humanity as much as during that moment. It was like black hole in my soul.

I excelled at school. But was forced to drop out. Because I was assaulted.

Please don’t hate me. I actually like you. But your attitude needs a lot of work before we can take it on the road.

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I was harassed and intimidated by gangs of youth with immigrant origin. That is because I myself is partially immigrant, but I refused to hang out with them. Before I was diagnosed (age 12), I was actually taken seriously by teachers and break guards. They found it little irritating that I did not interact with any peer, but they accepted my reports as truthful.

You were a victim of various forms of verbal and emotional abuse.
You don’t mention actual violence. I’m not saying that makes it acceptable. Just that you need to understand how other people see things. They don’t like to think too hard, and a minority kid who won’t hang out with the other minority kids is too much brain work for the typical NT. They probably didn’t know what to do with you.

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But after I was diagnosed in year 1999, it started to rapidly decline. Soon, their only standard reply was "So so. They are just seeking contact. You do not understand what they want. Just be friendly with them." They also started to talk more slowly and more childishly to me. That got me very upset once when my teacher did so. So I took an iron ruler from the whiteboard and beat her up. I was simply fed up with not being taken seriously.

Here is where you stepped over the line. She was a fool and you were wrong. No, that does not make it even. What’s disturbing is that, even as an adult, you still see nothing wrong with this.

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When I went to college, harassments intensified, as some subhumans constantly spread out rumors that I was insane.

You were insane. Maybe they couldn’t name the specific form, but they were essentially correct. Especially if they knew your background. You proceeded to prove it.

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When I confronted girlfriend of one of the major subhumans, alpha male of that pack, and gave her public verbal assault, I was later assaulted and beaten up by five Turks and Arabs in one of the stairs at college. This happened when I was seventeen. I got one arm broken and two ribs shattered, as well as inner bleedings and slight brain concussion.

Of course that was wrong of them, but it’s not surprising. How could you not know that they would retaliate? You lost control and took an incredible risk, for nothing.

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There was 30 witnesses. None of them dared to testify. They feared Turks, because Turks controlled drugs and prostitution in my suburb.

Have you ever thought about it from their point of view? You were asking them to testify against some very dangerous people. Even if you were my best friend, I would need to think about it. If you were simply a stranger, I would need to think about it really hard. For someone they already dislike, who went out of his way to provoke the attack, what was there to be gained by testifying? I won’t say that it’s right to be a coward, but I can understand it.

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I was also known to be very racist during that time (2004).

That could easily make you very unpopular.

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They claimed I had fallen in stairs. I called them liars. So, six weeks after assault, I was summoned to principal office. There I was told that I could either quit college or face serious consequences. He threatened to report me to authorities for "slander" and "hate crime". He also reiterated that Hassan and Ali merely wanted me to be friendly with them and not "harass their girlfriends". He also explained to me that since I have Asperger's, I should not judge how people act because I am unable to comprehend it. He also explained to me that I am in need of constantly having someone to ask why people are behaving like they are. As an Aspergian, I am unable to do so, he meant.

I wonder. He was at least half right. He might have thought he was doing you a favor. What would you have done when you recovered and got out of the chair? From the principal’s point of view, would your behavior have been better or worse? If you went right back to provoking them, you could have easily gotten yourself killed. Short of adopting you and making you his full-time job, he probably didn’t know what else to do.

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If I hadn’t still been on wheelchair, I would strangled him. I seriously never had hated humanity as much as during that moment. It was like black hole in my soul. I excelled at school. But was forced to drop out. Because I was assaulted.

Not exactly.

First, I would say that you need some kind of anger management. Your reactions are not helping. You can’t fight the whole world.

If you get a handle on that, I would think that a fresh start would be good. Some place where you are a member of the majority, so that race is not an issue. The Asperger’s is more than enough of a challenge.

Do you still have grandparents or other relatives in Yugoslavia with whom you are still friendly? Do you speak the language? What would happen if you went there? (I have no idea what the economy is doing in Yugoslavia. I know that it is pretty rough everywhere. Anyway, I am going to proceed as though the economy is not a factor and you could get a decent job there.)

Use the internet as an outlet for your frustrations, as you have been doing but, in real life, learn to behave yourself. Think of Clark Kent. I was kinda hoping to save the world, but you won’t be worth much to the cause if you’re in jail or get yourself killed.

By the way, your English is pretty good. If this is a third language, I would call it amazing. Are you using this in any way professionally?

I agree it was strategically and morally wrong to assault teacher. My defense is that I was 13 years (it was in 2000) and very depressed. Besides, I have dominant personality type. I am not someone who is accepting to get pushed over. I have also very strong sense of justice.

Thing was, they used me as some sort of excuse to explain away gang violence. In my then neighbourhood, they had enormous problems with gang violence. So they claimed that school was dysfunctional not because of criminal gangs selling drugs on schoolyard or young gang members trying to rape girls at school toilets, but because one boy had Asperger's syndrome. Sick thing is that I was one of few students who always attended class.

Thing was, I was harmless target. If teachers would have with-taken actions against gangs, they would have been fired, because that would make them racist.

All Swedes in my school was racist, but not openly. I was known to criticise immigration levels in public and asking for tougher laws and rules. Therefore, they called me "racist".

I have been to Belgrade when I was 10 (1997) and I appreciated it, so you know. But my sense of justice forbids me to parasiting on anyone else. That is one reason why I has declined to live in government-subsidised living for mentally impaired (other reason is that it is humiliating). Instead, I work as cleaner and live with elder couple in countryside house today, paying them rent.

To me, it doesn’t sound like this situation could have been avoided. It sounds like those Turks really had it out for you and you were going to lose your temper and retaliate eventually. After hearing the other stories like the rape in the bathroom and the kid in the wheelchair getting pushed down the stairs, it was probably for the better that you don’t go to that school anymore. I sure as hell wouldn’t want to go to that school.

Now I think I can understand your hatred of humanity, Smith. This does not mean I agree with you.